Wake up it’s 4am!

What makes you sooooo happy to be woken from your slumbers at 4am? When both your babies need you (nursing and bad dream) and your heart jumps and rejoices.

Listening to my infant wiggle and fall back asleep after nursing and watching my big girl reset and snuggle with her Ellie’s on the monitor before she drifts back to sleep puffs my heart full of joy. While waiting for them to fall asleep again I read a friend’s new blog (Jamie lovetheseBunns.wordpress.com that’s you) – It made me think me of how God must respond to our middle of the night cry outs … literally jumping out of bed at four in the morning, with hugs and kisses cuz He’s so happy to be there to comfort and love.

So many things in parenting have shown me more and more the extra efforts that My Savior goes for me. The frustration that builds and yet the parental love the overwhelms. He’s not just a big white haired old guy with a long beard on a throne for me anymore. He’s the loving Creator, impressed and in awe of His own creation most days- and even though there are some days He probably wants to squish us all it’s the purist of loves that won’t ever let that happen. Who in the same second when He may have to scold us, He’d also take a bullet for us and give his life so that we may live… parenting reminds me so much of the love of Christ I’m blessed to have the reminder.

Ps They won’t be little forever. And I want them to call out for me for sooo many many many more years. #mommyismyfavoritename #momfallsasleeplast #Godsloveisbigger

Pss don’t worry if there are errors or run on sentences, it’s early and I’m tired. #yawn


Ten Random Pictures

Speaking of being the best me I can be… I need to get better at surrounding thing that make me happy… No matter what the judgers will judge and the nasayers will say! Here are ten random pictures that make my day!! 

Have a Damn Happy Friday!


Don’t be mean. Be defiant. 

Someone close to me recently told me I was fat. And not like a little fat. Like damn girl you fat! Fat. But I’m not fat. I’m sexy. Attractive. Pretty. Funny. Kind. Smart. And so many other things. Now I’m not saying that I’m skinny or thin. And wouldn’t even say healthy. But I’m not fat. I have fat. Too much of it in fact. And I’m gonna work hard at beginning to rid my body if it, because I want to be healthier not for you or your silly skinny pants sizes, but for my family and to make sure my chances are strong of seeing my baby girl grow up and even my future grandchildren. My weight is not something personal with you don’t act like it is. I am still me. Inside all this body and even without all this body. I don’t care if I’m a head in a jar. I’m still me. And this year. I’m gonna start loving more of me. And less of what you think of me. And that starts with Doing what makes me the best me that I want to be. 

And today the best me is in her bra showing off her sexy not her fat and of course her defiance. 

Getting Over Your Own Glass Ceilings

I just listened to a very interesting online radio show, and I wanted to share it with you 🙂

It makes sense to me that we all have comfort zones that even after we break through them, that we can easily return to the “norm” verses continuing to live outside of those comfort zones. It takes so much work to change our normal habits and how we see our lifestyles. I can agree to that whole-heartedly. It is hard to change a mindset of what you think is supposed to be, verses maybe what actually is…

Click on this link to listen to the show, I would like to know what you think!

Vibrational Set Points #cassieparks #mmm

What set points have been holding you back lately?

Personally, I can think of a few… but every day I’m working to become a better me!

Misguided Mindset

  • I don’t have enough time to get done the things I would like.
  • I am always behind on tasks.
  • I don’t work hard enough on my future goals.
  • I can’t.
  • I have to prove myself to my family.


  • I can prioritize well and can realistically plan many tasks in my day.
  • I often take on too many things at once, which then makes me feel like I am behind, when in fact – my focus and mind has changed about prioritizes.
  • I have more future goals than most people I know, daily steps are fine.
  • I know I can, I am just sometimes scared to try.
  • I know that I am loved just for being me by lots of people that count.

Boo!! Halloween is Near

Halloween is often about getting scared on purpose. When I was younger, my friends and I would wait in long lines and pay to run through the haunted houses or corn mazes…. Why? Cuz for some reason being scared on purpose for this holiday is acceptable. But fear isn’t really welcomed in other ways or around other special days. Maybe it’s fun because we get to ALLOW ourselves to feel the fear, with some kind of safety net; any other time we are avoiding scared things and playing pretend about how strong we are. 

There are many things in life that I fear. And yet so many are unfounded or unrealistic. Fear can be a motivator or a cripple ones movement… Like in so many life moments, there is a choice to be made.

One of my fears is to have my family be disappointed in me. I often let my husband down by not having dinner ready or getting his laundry done and it bothers me. I can’t seem to catch up these days. But even with that I don’t fear that he will love me less or treat me different, he loves me either way. But I do have a car payment to make now (after nine years of not) so that one weighs on me more that the laundry. I have to do what it takes- fight through the fear of working the businesses and processes that I have in place. To earn the income for my family hats a big deal and everyone has that right! And when you own businesses big or little, comes with a large side of fear in most cases. So I know that I’m not totally crazy on that part. Lol

What is it you fear most?? I’d like to know. 

“Each of us must confront our own fears, must come face to face with them. How we handle our fears will determine where we go with the rest of our lives. To experience adventure or to be limited by the fear of it.” –Judy Blume

“Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy.” –Dale Carnegie

“You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, ‘I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.’ You must do the thing you think you cannot do.” –Eleanor Roosevelt

“Fear is the path to the Dark Side. Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering.” –Yoda

“The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.”–Nelson Mandela

Perfect 10 in Ten

Looking for 10 people to be part of a guinea pig program with me… It is call the Perfect 10 in Ten. Would you be interested in losing 10% of your body weight over the next 10 weeks?? Doesn’t that sound so doable? I am so excited to get started, and wanted to take some friends along with me! Let’s do this together! I hope you are interested in hearing more?


The Next 5 years… Are gonna be BIG! 

I held off in even opening this book because I throughly I needed to sit down with my DH and plan the next five years out together. I am only a few pages in and I’m feeling empowered and hopeful as my five year plan comes together. I have never planned out farther than two years, to wrap up my college degree. Now that the degree is in hand, I decided I wanted to walk a new path one that is filled with goals, plans and supports my personal core values. 

My new I AM statement: I am a wife and mother, a college graduate who dreama big and has unlimited potential when she makes a decision. I am fun exciting crazy unbalanced chaotic thoughtful organized sexy confident and powerful. 

I highly suggest this book “5” and I can even order it for you through my greeting card and gifts company. Let me know if you want one. And take this journey with me!!! 

Without a focused solid path to adjust , fall off of, get back on and remodel where will you be in five years?? 

Order for the Universe

I am so happy and grateful now that I am a manager in SOC this month. I did not know how it was going to come about but I believed that it would happen.

I have confidence and faith.

I feel wonderful and open to receive.

I am so happy and grateful now that I have taken steps and succeed in making healthy choices this month. I did not know how it was going to come about but I believed that it would happen.

I have confidence and faith.

I feel wonderful and open to receive.

I am so happy and grateful, I am living in abundance this month. I did not know how it was going to come about but I believed that it would happen.

I have confidence and faith.

I feel wonderful and open to receive.