Just Checking In

This post is gonna be filled with a lot of honesty, so if you can’t handle it just go away.🙂

So here’s the honest, I have been pretty, very, super depressed lately. My life has seemed to be in utter chaos for quite a while now. LOTS of big life changes/challenges have been occurring one after another it seems and it has been very difficult for me to keep up… at all. Let alone keep up in a healthy way.

Spiritually, Emotionally and Physically I have been so tired and drained that I haven’t been able to do much for myself or for my family. I’ve been just existing. And I’ve been lucky to have a family that has continued to support and love me. It has been good to be able to have people that I can be sad with and not have to explain everything. Cuz it’s not like I can explain it, that’s kinda what depression does, it sneaks up and makes you feel like everything you were hoping for and every goal you’ve been working for is wrong. Like you’ve been going the wrong direction for months, years or eve your whole life.

But today something changed, just a little tiny bit, today I almost felt like myself again. I am still tired. I am still exhausted and drained. But I actually had some brain power, some mental energy that almost made me feel like me. My inner voice had something to say – and I felt like if I didn’t grab a pen or a keyboard to get some of it down, it might go away again.

Today it wanted to say – I’m still here and even though I’ve been quiet, I’m gonna be ok.

Ten Random Pictures

Speaking of being the best me I can be… I need to get better at surrounding thing that make me happy… No matter what the judgers will judge and the nasayers will say! Here are ten random pictures that make my day!! 


Have a Damn Happy Friday!

Jenn

Don’t be mean. Be defiant. 

Someone close to me recently told me I was fat. And not like a little fat. Like damn girl you fat! Fat. But I’m not fat. I’m sexy. Attractive. Pretty. Funny. Kind. Smart. And so many other things. Now I’m not saying that I’m skinny or thin. And wouldn’t even say healthy. But I’m not fat. I have fat. Too much of it in fact. And I’m gonna work hard at beginning to rid my body if it, because I want to be healthier not for you or your silly skinny pants sizes, but for my family and to make sure my chances are strong of seeing my baby girl grow up and even my future grandchildren. My weight is not something personal with you don’t act like it is. I am still me. Inside all this body and even without all this body. I don’t care if I’m a head in a jar. I’m still me. And this year. I’m gonna start loving more of me. And less of what you think of me. And that starts with Doing what makes me the best me that I want to be. 

And today the best me is in her bra showing off her sexy not her fat and of course her defiance. 

Getting Over Your Own Glass Ceilings

I just listened to a very interesting online radio show, and I wanted to share it with you🙂

It makes sense to me that we all have comfort zones that even after we break through them, that we can easily return to the “norm” verses continuing to live outside of those comfort zones. It takes so much work to change our normal habits and how we see our lifestyles. I can agree to that whole-heartedly. It is hard to change a mindset of what you think is supposed to be, verses maybe what actually is…

Click on this link to listen to the show, I would like to know what you think!

Vibrational Set Points #cassieparks #mmm

What set points have been holding you back lately?

Personally, I can think of a few… but every day I’m working to become a better me!

Misguided Mindset

  • I don’t have enough time to get done the things I would like.
  • I am always behind on tasks.
  • I don’t work hard enough on my future goals.
  • I can’t.
  • I have to prove myself to my family.

Actuality

  • I can prioritize well and can realistically plan many tasks in my day.
  • I often take on too many things at once, which then makes me feel like I am behind, when in fact – my focus and mind has changed about prioritizes.
  • I have more future goals than most people I know, daily steps are fine.
  • I know I can, I am just sometimes scared to try.
  • I know that I am loved just for being me by lots of people that count.

Breakfast day zero

#Perfect10inTen

Some days you just gotta start somewhere!! Today you’re invited to join me on a weight loss challenge day zero- ask me how to start today!! Vitality Weight Loss System. 

  
 
Often the only way to hold yourself accountable is to be accountable to others. Creating new habits can be very difficult alone. So let’s do it together!! You will find support and encouragement on a private Facebook page, emails and personal phone/text updates.   

Join with me this week (ending Oct 31, 2015) and I will give you a free product gift valued at $20 of your choice, to help support your health goals. 

Invite ten to join with you and become part of our paid referral program. See I’m serious. Let’s do this together!!! 

And if you were wondering how breakfast tasted. It was toddler approved!! So you know it had to be good 😉 

  

Boo!! Halloween is Near

Halloween is often about getting scared on purpose. When I was younger, my friends and I would wait in long lines and pay to run through the haunted houses or corn mazes…. Why? Cuz for some reason being scared on purpose for this holiday is acceptable. But fear isn’t really welcomed in other ways or around other special days. Maybe it’s fun because we get to ALLOW ourselves to feel the fear, with some kind of safety net; any other time we are avoiding scared things and playing pretend about how strong we are. 

There are many things in life that I fear. And yet so many are unfounded or unrealistic. Fear can be a motivator or a cripple ones movement… Like in so many life moments, there is a choice to be made.

One of my fears is to have my family be disappointed in me. I often let my husband down by not having dinner ready or getting his laundry done and it bothers me. I can’t seem to catch up these days. But even with that I don’t fear that he will love me less or treat me different, he loves me either way. But I do have a car payment to make now (after nine years of not) so that one weighs on me more that the laundry. I have to do what it takes- fight through the fear of working the businesses and processes that I have in place. To earn the income for my family hats a big deal and everyone has that right! And when you own businesses big or little, comes with a large side of fear in most cases. So I know that I’m not totally crazy on that part. Lol

What is it you fear most?? I’d like to know. 

“Each of us must confront our own fears, must come face to face with them. How we handle our fears will determine where we go with the rest of our lives. To experience adventure or to be limited by the fear of it.” –Judy Blume

“Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy.” –Dale Carnegie

“You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, ‘I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.’ You must do the thing you think you cannot do.” –Eleanor Roosevelt

“Fear is the path to the Dark Side. Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering.” –Yoda

“The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.”–Nelson Mandela

Perfect10inTen, Day Zero

Yummy Breakfast, Day Zero

Some days you just gotta start somewhere!! Today you are invited to join me on a weight loss challenge, day zero – ask me how to start today!! Check out the details here at Vitality Weight Loss Challenge.

Anyone who is interested in starting this week with me – we are working towards a pretty amazing goal of losing 10% of our body weight in ten weeks. It’s tough. It’s doable. And it’s a challenge we can do together.

When you connect with me I will show you the walk through and add you to the private fb page where you will find support and encouragement along the way.

Join me before Oct 31st, 2015 and I will give you an extra incentive to help you focus on your health goals. Invite 10 others to jump in with you and you can be part of our paid referral team.

And if you were wondering how breakfast tasted – it was happy toddler approved!

#Perfect10inTen

Forgiving Faults of My Own

Forgiveness in any relationship goes a long way.

When we choose to allow and accept that others have different kinds of baggage than we do, we grow as a person and get stronger.

Honesty is it fair to be unpacking their suitcase if they haven’t invited you?? No. I even hate it when TSA does it, omg someone touched my undies. Ew. And omg they saw my undies. 

So why would it be fair for us to get all up in someone else’s biz? (Disclaimer: this does not, Not apply for self destructive actions or abusive situations.)

When we judge those in situations that could happen to us, we show our weakness and disconnect from true reality. 
Reality is. People. Aren’t. Perfect. 

So why are you trying to make them?? 

(You thought I was done huh? Nope.)

So who where you thinking about while reading this? Someone who hurt you or someone you have hurt recently? A friend? A lover? A coworker? Sounds like you are either feeling the pull to do some forgiving, looking for forgiveness from them or maybe even feeling judged by that person. While it is nice to share my blog and my words with others (and thank you to those who do!)- it is not likely going to help the situation if you send them the link and say “Look jerk face she says you age to forgive me so there. Do it!” so maybe just this time don’t share it. 

But! I didn’t even want to talk about them… I would actually like to talk about the other person who we need to forgive and who probably judges us the most out of anyone ever! Ourselves. Yep that’s it. Me. And you. 

I find it often can be so easy to lay judgment upon others for something that we could have done ourselves. Maybe even thought of doing. Maybe even did do. But even in those mean girl moments we are often likely to be meanest to ourselves. It can often be easier to forgive another person for doing something that you’ve done yourselves but haven’t delt with and forgiven yourself for yet. 

If you’ve jumped past all this and are in the But I love myself boat no matter what. Good for you. But there are a lot of men and women that aren’t yet. And I am one of them. Although over the last few years I have been able to relax on the expectations that I have on other people in my life. Sometimes I still overextend and over plan and over do and then over react when something doesn’t go the way I was expecting in my own personal world. (You ever do that?) and I get mean to myself and sometimes even act out by doing some thing that is not truly in my character. Like tell someone they are fat- ha. I would never tel a friend. Or likely even a stranger, “wow you look fat today!” So why is it that I tell myself that and listen!! Or maybe say “wow you didn’t do that one thing right you should probably never try that or something new again”…. Yep never gonna tell my daughter that so probably shouldn’t tell me self it either. 

So coming back to reality… People aren’t perfect and I (YOU) don’t have to be either. It’s ok to mess up. It’s ok to be wrong. It’s ok to take risks and fall on your face and get up and try again or sometimes decide that risk wasn’t worth it. It’s ok to say your sorry…. To everyone. 

Even yourself sometimes. 

And it is ok to try again. Forgiveness, not judging, and self love often doesn’t just happen over night. 

#iwontjudgeyourbaggageifyouwontjudgemine #marriageishard #friendshipishard #lovingselfishard #dontbeselfish #selfforgiveness #nowthisisablogworthsharing 

Perfect 10 in Ten

Looking for 10 people to be part of a guinea pig program with me… It is call the Perfect 10 in Ten. Would you be interested in losing 10% of your body weight over the next 10 weeks?? Doesn’t that sound so doable? I am so excited to get started, and wanted to take some friends along with me! Let’s do this together! I hope you are interested in hearing more?

#perfect10inten